Black Pearl is Here

Happiness, Laughter, Tears, Sadness, Excitement, and Love, Love, Love!

blackpearlshake — Wed, 28 Dec 2011 06:03:26 +0000

5mos. and counting. Thank you for everything. ♥

Stay Happy

blackpearlshake — Mon, 14 Nov 2011 11:39:36 +0000

me: stay happy.

him: stay with me, so I’d stay happy.

Simple, pero rak. May pitik sa puso ko, tuwing ganito ang convo namin. ♥

...sabay yakap, tapos lalo akong kikiligin ♥

Huwag Kang Matakot

blackpearlshake — Tue, 18 Oct 2011 02:28:10 +0000

Everytime he sings any song to me, I totally lol. He’s out of tune, seriously, but he sings all his heart out. And he does it all the time. It’s sweet. And I love him. He makes me smile, and I know he’s always there for me no matter what. Last night, amidst all the hardships I’m going through, he sang to me, it touched my heart so much, I cried:

Huwag kang matakot (Don't be afraid)
‘Di mo ba alam nandito lang ako (Don't you know I am here for you)
Sa iyong tabi (By your side)
‘Di kita pababayaan kailan man (I won't leave you forever)
At kung ikaw ay mahulog sa bangin (And if you fall into the abyss)
Ay sasaluhin kita (I will catch you)

Huwag kang matakot na matulog mag-isa (Don't be afraid to sleep alone)
Kasama mo naman ako (I will be with you)
Huwag kang matakot na umibig at lumuha (Don't be afraid to love and shed tears)
Kasama mo naman ako ( I will be with you)
Huwag kang matakot (Don't be afraid)

Huwag kang matakot (Don't be afraid)
Dahil ang buhay mo’y walang katapusan ("Coz your life has no ending)
Makapangyarihan ang pag-ibig (That love is powerful)
Na hawak mo sa iyong kamay (Which you are holding)
Ikaw ang Diyos at hari ng iyong mundo (You are the God and the king of your world)
Matakot sila sa ‘yo (They'll fear you)



Huwag kang matakot na matulog mag-isa (Don't be afraid to sleep alone)
Kasama mo naman ako (I will be with you)
Huwag kang matakot na umibig at lumuha (Don't be afraid to love and shed tears)
Kasama mo naman ako ( I will be with you)
Huwag kang matakot na magmukhang tanga (Don't be afraid to look stupid)
Kasama mo naman ako (I will be with you)
Huwag kang matakot sa hindi mo pa makita (Don't be afraid of things you couldn't see)
Kasama mo naman ako (I will be with you)
Huwag kang matakot (Don't be afraid)
Aahhhah



Huwag kang matakot (Don't be afraid)
‘Di kita pababayaan kailan man. (I won't leave you forever)

Yung feeling na akala mo, pinabayaan ka niya, pero pag-uwi mo, may surprise pala sya para sa iyo. ♥

blackpearlshake — Fri, 07 Oct 2011 06:35:02 +0000

NUFF SAID.

4th of October

blackpearlshake — Tue, 04 Oct 2011 05:39:36 +0000

This exact date. With this exact feeling two years ago. Having a boyfriend who does no effort on my most important day. That sucks, when they promised to make me smile, do something special, blah blah, then not even do a thing for me. I wouldn’t expect if they hadn’t told me anything. It’s sad, I’m not supposed to feel this way. Everyone’s wishing me a happy birthday… It’s wrong to focus my attention on that one person I want to be with on this special day…. I don’t know, I just feel so low. This just sucks, BIG TIME. :’(

Minsan, kung ano pa yung ayaw mo, yun ang ibibigay ng buhay sa iyo

blackpearlshake — Thu, 29 Sep 2011 09:10:11 +0000

Hindi ka pwedeng magreklamo.

Hindi ka pwedeng mamili.

Kasi wala ka namang choice.

Kung hindi tanggapin na lamang.

Pagsubok iyan para sa iyo.

One day, kapag nilingon mo’ng lahat ng pinagdaraanan mo ngayon,

tatawa ka na lang at sasabihin…

“Aah… kaya pala…”

Kasi may natutunan ka.

Kasi naging mas matatag ka.

Kasi tinuruan ka ng buhay ng lessons.

At magpapasalamat ka.

Kasi you grew into a better person. :)

—BlackPearl

Lonely No More

blackpearlshake — Sat, 10 Sep 2011 07:49:12 +0000

It’s funny how you end up with someone you never thought would be a big part of your life. Someone you used to know just by face, someone who just existed… or even not in your life — who’s just there, but not even mingling with your world’s orbital movement or something. And then one ordinary day…

You bump into each other, not realizing there’s this “spark” people say… Too cliché, huh? But you don’t get it in that moment rightaway. After many times of meeting, sometime, you just feel it. And then you think about it… like, “Hey, that’s the guy from blah blah… and I remember those etc…” Then you ignore it. Then you rethink sometime, and one day, you just wake up realizing, deym, am I in love?

—Exactly what happened to me.

So the story’s pretty simple. Nothing spectacular like in movies or whatever. But looking back on what we both have been through in life, apart, we learned, grew, became stronger, just to realize that some magical force was just preparing us for that day we become part of each other’s life. And everything that happened in the past has their own reason why things didn’t work out with our past relationships. It’s because those were just our stepping stones, experiences that mold us to become who we are now, so we’d work out.

Finally, the moment I have been waiting for, the so-called “In God’s time” is here. I am happy, being in this relationship, having this crazy little thing called LOVE. ♥

7 years

blackpearlshake — Mon, 09 May 2011 03:05:22 +0000

It’s been 7 years… and every single year, I remember you in this exact season. The last of summer, and the first fall of rain, and everything in between the first time we met, and the moment we have to part ways. I wonder where are you now, how you’re doing… Do you still remember me? The girl who first shed her tears for someone she barely knows (I remember you wiped those tears). The girl you held hands with inside the church, a few minutes before you two won’t see each other again. We were so young then.

I remember we’d almost stay up all night ‘coz we both can’t wait to see each other in the morning. Many things happened, things change, we won’t see the garden full of memories for the place is all-new, we’d barely recognize it. But this feeling… this exact feeling, I cannot forget. Waking up with the sun’s warmth on my skin, playing with the cool breeze, jumping off my bed and hurriedly preparing, and running to that place where we’d meet. Funny thing, we won’t talk about it. We just know we’ll see each other. Without words, we were happy. I miss those times.

Are you married already? Have you found yourself the woman of your dreams? Do I ever cross your mind? As blurry as it is, sometimes I still wish you’d find me. You know where I am. In this town, I won’t move, so if you ever come back, you’ll see me waiting.

The Little Mermaid

blackpearlshake — Tue, 12 Apr 2011 02:10:07 +0000

Tossing and turning in my bed though the sun is up and smiling at me, I still wish I could stay there all day. I’m tired of work, it’s everyday I have to do the same things and manage to smile even in times when it feels like the heavens have fallen and punched me in the face. I listen to Pachelbel’s Canon while I remember a friend’s wedding a few days ago. I have long dreamed of becoming a bride, until now I am still stuck with the character who catches the bouquet in every wedding. Every single wedding, man.

Staring at my cellphone’s wallpaper, is a picture of a perfect couple… in my dreams. I like him, only in silence, for in silence no one owns him but me. I don’t know if reality’s ancestor is a bug. It always bites… making me want to stay for even longer inside my room and daydream to escape from it.

I have no idea how to depict the coincidental pattern of the events in my life. Call me Pearl, The Little Mermaid (Hans Christian Andersen’s, not Disney’s Ariel). I have been living like a bubble, yet waiting for true love and happiness to find me in every afterlife. If the so-called “pattern” still goes on, this would be the third time I longed and hoped for a man I like to feel the same towards me and truly be mine… but in the end, he’ll come home to the girl he really loves and I turn into bubbles again, never to be seen, nor feel the melancholy I have been through for the nth time.

If this is what fate has drawn, I hope it changes its mind. I am still hoping that somewhere, someday, someone is meant for me… That one who will save this little mermaid from drowning in loneliness, and live together happily ever after. ♥

Overflowing

blackpearlshake — Mon, 11 Apr 2011 06:05:11 +0000

My head is overflowing with thoughts, I cannot choose which one to blog first:

- Day 1: The Basics

-Day 2: Freestyle

-Sports 101: Being Handled by Pros

-Unrequited Love

-Waiting For That Day / Sign; Letting Go

etc etc …

*** Need tons of diligence to start off any of the above listed. So, yea…