Bliss ‘n Mow

Bilisan mo, baka maiwan ka ng panahon,
Anumang nakalipas, di na maibabalik yun.
Bilisan mo, baka iwan ka ng sandali,
Mahirap nang habulin at makamtan muli.

Bilisan mo, hindi ka habambuhay bata,
Di mo mamamalayan, mabilis kang tatanda.
At kapag naramdaman mong handa ka nang magmahal,
Huwag sayangin ang pagkakataon, may mga bagay na di na pinagtatagal.

Bilisan mo, baka maunahan ka ng iba,
Pag nainip sya kahihintay sa iyong pagsinta.
Pag huli na ang lahat, mahihirapan kang sya’y bawiin,
Kapag sa puso nya’y may iba nang umangkin.

Bilisan mo, di mo alam ang buhay,
Di ka sigurado hanggang kailan mo ito taglay.
Tuparin mo ang iyong mga pangarap, abutin mo nang masikap,
Nang sa huli’y wala kang pagsisihan, matapos man ang lahat.

BlackPearl
051712
Thursday
5:34 pm

Nostalgic

I miss those summer nights,
I miss those hugs,
I miss those kisses,
And bittersweet goodbyes.

I miss the times,
When though apart,
Your heart was mine.

The way I felt
Everytime you held my hand,
And told me nothing’s changed;
Feelings stay the same.

Warm sand,
Subtle waves,
Waters at night,
Trees by day,
Motorcycle diaries,
Cool, calm wind,
Embraces me.

…And in a thousand years, none of these feelings will ever fade.

BlackPearl
051512
Tuesday
5:50pm

Quote

“Unexpressed emotions will never die. They are buried alive and will come forth later in uglier ways.”

—	Sigmund Freud

You were everything I was looking for when I wasn’t even looking

Karma, tinatamad ka na ba?

After all this time, pakiramdam ko, talo na, talo pa. Ang weird, ang lungkot. Isang araw, magigising ka na lang, na ang simpatya sa iyo ng mga taong nakapaligid sa iyo ay hanggang dun na lang. “Ah…ganun?” “Talaga?” “Ano nangyari?” “Grabe naman…” Pagkatapos… wala na. Yun lang yun. They move on with their lives, expecting you to do the same. Which is the right thing to do. But not as easy as walking on the streets or the subway. It’s rather leaving your favorite place and time, keeping yourself from looking back, but the temptation is so strong and your feet is locked by chains and every step takes a lot of effort, courage, pain…

 

And as everyone says, “Makakarma din sila...” Yeah, right. I see that. In their happy faces. Their sweet smiles. Laughter, pleasant gifts from life and people glad and supporting their togetherness. Life isn’t fair sometimes, but God is.  Pero hindi ko makita kung san banda ako sasaya, tapos iikot ang mundo, tapos sila naman yung malulugar sa pwesto ko. At mararamdaman nila yung equal na sakit na dinulot nila sa akin. I doubt that’d happen.

 

Forgiveness — it will set you free.  I guess I grew too tired to give it away this time. I don’t even remember how so much of it was wasted. The number of times I gave it was the number of times I was back-stabbed. I don’t know what kind of game life is playing on me, but  one thing’s for sure, hell has been shoved in my face that I was and still too disoriented to think of what to do next. Forgive? Nah, those are for people who at least felt sorry for what they did. Leave it to Karma? Wait, I think it’s on a long-term vacation leave.

Happiness, Laughter, Tears, Sadness, Excitement, and Love, Love, Love!

 

5mos. and counting. Thank you for everything.  ♥

Stay Happy

me: stay happy.

him: stay with me, so I’d stay happy.

Simple, pero rak. May pitik sa puso ko, tuwing ganito ang convo namin.  ♥

...sabay yakap, tapos lalo akong kikiligin ♥

Huwag Kang Matakot

Everytime he sings any song to me, I totally lol. He’s out of tune, seriously, but he sings all his heart out. And he does it all the time. It’s sweet. And I love him. He makes me smile, and I know he’s always there for me no matter what. Last night, amidst all the hardships I’m going through, he sang to me, it touched my heart so much, I cried:

Huwag kang matakot (Don't be afraid)
‘Di mo ba alam nandito lang ako (Don't you know I am here for you)
Sa iyong tabi (By your side)
‘Di kita pababayaan kailan man (I won't leave you forever)
At kung ikaw ay mahulog sa bangin (And if you fall into the abyss)
Ay sasaluhin kita (I will catch you)

Huwag kang matakot na matulog mag-isa (Don't be afraid to sleep alone)
Kasama mo naman ako (I will be with you)
Huwag kang matakot na umibig at lumuha (Don't be afraid to love and shed tears)
Kasama mo naman ako ( I will be with you)
Huwag kang matakot (Don't be afraid)

Huwag kang matakot (Don't be afraid)
Dahil ang buhay mo’y walang katapusan ("Coz your life has no ending)
Makapangyarihan ang pag-ibig (That love is powerful)
Na hawak mo sa iyong kamay (Which you are holding)
Ikaw ang Diyos at hari ng iyong mundo (You are the God and the king of your world)
Matakot sila sa ‘yo (They'll fear you)



Huwag kang matakot na matulog mag-isa (Don't be afraid to sleep alone)
Kasama mo naman ako (I will be with you)
Huwag kang matakot na umibig at lumuha (Don't be afraid to love and shed tears)
Kasama mo naman ako ( I will be with you)
Huwag kang matakot na magmukhang tanga (Don't be afraid to look stupid)
Kasama mo naman ako (I will be with you)
Huwag kang matakot sa hindi mo pa makita (Don't be afraid of things you couldn't see)
Kasama mo naman ako (I will be with you)
Huwag kang matakot (Don't be afraid)
Aahhhah



Huwag kang matakot (Don't be afraid)
‘Di kita pababayaan kailan man. (I won't leave you forever)

Yung feeling na akala mo, pinabayaan ka niya, pero pag-uwi mo, may surprise pala sya para sa iyo. ♥

NUFF SAID.

4th of October

This exact date. With this exact feeling two years ago. Having a boyfriend who does no effort on my most important day. That sucks, when they promised to make me smile, do something special, blah blah, then not even do a thing for me. I wouldn’t expect if they hadn’t told me anything. It’s sad, I’m not supposed to feel this way. Everyone’s wishing me a happy birthday… It’s wrong to focus my attention on that one person I want to be with on this special day…. I don’t know, I just feel so low. This just sucks, BIG TIME. :’(